i refuse to think it. because i am awkward, and you are beautiful. and this isn’t wrong because i am squeezing your hips with my legs, and you are brushing my hair from my face again. you’re so beautiful. you’re wonderful, and i am falling deeper and deeper in love with you with every single second that passes.

i’m done looking. i’m ready to lay it on the line. i’m ready to fall asleep next to you every night, and if we’re playing this for keeps, you’ve already beat me. i miss you when i’m away, and i’m ready to let myself stay in your arms. i won’t run away anymore. i won’t let you fall when i’m not around to catch you. i’ll stay. i’ll learn to stay. if you can stop threatening the end, then i will stop running away, and i will let you pull me closer, and my lips will find yours as your burying your face into my shoulder. leave your marks, and my skin marks so easily. run your fingernails down my back, and i will know that i belong to you.

this isn’t wrong. this is our ultimate love song. the world told us no, but here we are. we’re laughing, and we’re happy, and we’re learning how to love one another. kiss me again baby, i missed you all day. 

can we go back that place? where we scaled the building to scream at the city lights? sit in the alcove and huddle in with secrets. i love you. i really do. i know you’ll read this. i know you’ll reach for me. and this time, i promise to be there. i will catch your hand, and let you learn the complicated button of my slacks. i will fall into you, like i have been fighting not to do.

i have my wings. i’m ready for you to earn yours.